Today's thoughts
Ok... I guess I have to write in English sometimes for mostly American friends who stumble upon my blog. In actuality, I like writing in English because this language makes me articulate things more direct than Japanese.
It was passed midnight and about 11am EST, so I called Ann Hall at the Theatre Department at Salem State College where I used to work. Even though I have accepted my life here in Japan, I am not so sure whether I made a right choice to leave there. Don't get me wrong because I am happy here. What happend tonight was that suddenly I missed all of the things I was doing over there with my old job and my ex-colleagues. It is not certain that speaking to them would have helped me, but I enjoyed the conversation that I had. It has been three months since I came back to Saga, Japan. My adjustment period is over, and it seems that the real test begins now.
What do I try to judge my life with how much money I make and/or how many hours I work. These things really doesn't bring happiness. I am doing things that doesn't make whole a lot of money and it is ok. So I tell myself that. Why do I still compare with other people'e life? I have always led a unique life. I always have chosen my way. I have done things differently than others.
I just feel guilty a little bit, that's all. Because I seem to live an easy life. I am very fortunate that way. I want to work harder. I want to teach more. But now I have to be paitient. There is not enough opportunity yet. I do create an opportunity on my own as well, but also I have to wait for others to bring opportunities.
Life is never simple, but it has its moments to seem simple when my vision is clear.
I listen to Anglea Aki's cover of "Today" and this lyrics always speaks to my heart:
"Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long"
Obviously it is very late. Time to go to sleep....
It was passed midnight and about 11am EST, so I called Ann Hall at the Theatre Department at Salem State College where I used to work. Even though I have accepted my life here in Japan, I am not so sure whether I made a right choice to leave there. Don't get me wrong because I am happy here. What happend tonight was that suddenly I missed all of the things I was doing over there with my old job and my ex-colleagues. It is not certain that speaking to them would have helped me, but I enjoyed the conversation that I had. It has been three months since I came back to Saga, Japan. My adjustment period is over, and it seems that the real test begins now.
What do I try to judge my life with how much money I make and/or how many hours I work. These things really doesn't bring happiness. I am doing things that doesn't make whole a lot of money and it is ok. So I tell myself that. Why do I still compare with other people'e life? I have always led a unique life. I always have chosen my way. I have done things differently than others.
I just feel guilty a little bit, that's all. Because I seem to live an easy life. I am very fortunate that way. I want to work harder. I want to teach more. But now I have to be paitient. There is not enough opportunity yet. I do create an opportunity on my own as well, but also I have to wait for others to bring opportunities.
Life is never simple, but it has its moments to seem simple when my vision is clear.
I listen to Anglea Aki's cover of "Today" and this lyrics always speaks to my heart:
"Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long"
Obviously it is very late. Time to go to sleep....
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